I bow my head with respect to this year as it is coming to an end. I thank the happy and sad days as they’ve contributed to my growth and development. Before we say happy New Year and start looking in the future, I want to pay my respect to the past while I am still in this present.
I want to take a moment and thank five people for whom I am grateful this year. It is a practice I found online a few years ago. I remember it was an overwhelming exercise for some of my family members when we did it in the 2011’s New Year eve. My nephew, who was barely 11 years old at that time, got very touched as the practice led him to an innocent journey towards his heart. Today I want to share with my readers the five people for whom I am grateful, and you are welcome to write yours in the comment section or at least try to write it to yourself.
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To the five people for whom I am grateful this year:
The universe has assigned you to be my life coach for 26 years; your lessons were tough and stressful. For a long period of time, I felt maltreated, wronged, oppressed and tyrannized, but now I can see how the life I had with you made me stronger and pushed me to seek my true self. Last October, your cosmic duty as my coach has reached its end by the divorce. I want to thank you, my ex husband, for the life we had together in its ups and downs, for it is what made me the person I am today. Thanks for pushing me to stand up for myself and for making me realize how much my family loves me. Thanks for reminding me that God banishes no one, and that the universe is vast and infinite.
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You stood by me supporting and comforting me whenever I was depressed this last year. You’d listen to me and you’d surprise me with your valuable advises regardless of your young age. With you I pass the most jolly and happy times because you are my best friend. Thanks to you my beloved lovely son, thanks for being my son.
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I never told you about the problems I had with my husband because I always thought you wouldn’t listen or stand by me. Last July, I sought your help as my marriage was falling apart. You gave me strength every time I called you. You’d tell me: “Whatever comes from God will be good”, and your words would fortify me because I’d feel your unconditional love. You gave me support; I could lean on you. I was again a little girl who takes refuge in her dad’s arms; you made me feel safe again. Thanks baba.
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Many times in my foreignness, I needed to lay my head on your chest, to let go all my sorrows and worries, and to feel your supportive love regardless of the physical distance. They told me you are fragile, and they asked me not to tell you about my marriage’s problems. I didn’t want to hurt you although I needed you. But when I finally told you everything over the phone, your strong and determined voice surprised me. I imagined you a lioness ready on its paws to protect its child. Your love and prayers gave me strength. Thanks mama.
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Finally, without the light or the guidance I wouldn’t have gone through one of the toughest years of my life; it was the peak of my suffering through the 26 years of marriage. I am grateful for God for enlightening me through this year. I am grateful for my guide for directing me towards my essence. I am grateful for my soul, my spirit, and my true self. I am in all the mentioned and they are all in me. I am grateful for the wholeness in me, for my essence, for myself.
I can’t but mention a few more people for whom I am also grateful. My sisters: Sawsan, Randa, Roula and Nadine. My friends: Rachel, Nicole, Cigdem, Elena, Serpouhy, Micheal, and Eyad. And finally I am grateful for a beautiful soul I’ve got to know recently, to you my dear Carla, thanks for editing my article saving the readers from all the grammatical mistakes I always do. Thanks to every person gave me support consciously or unconsciously this year.
Happy New Year